Dresses, diets, and missing shoes

Today I had a pretty relaxing day. I slept til 1pm (*yes!!!!*), my friend came over w/ her doggies to chat, I took a nap on the beach (why do I need to take a nap when I slept til 1 is beyond me... probably because I only slept 7hrs and I need 9), got a nice tan, and came home and showered.

So after my shower I decided to pull out some dresses that I want to wear for the cruise. I didn't know if they'd all fit. Some I wear now and have been wearing for years. Some are not cut out for the cruise, some may be too tight, and I know one needs to be taken in at the stomach (a problem for big boobed people =/).

Everything checked out ok, except with the white dress I want to wear for formal night. I wore it last 2yrs ago OUT, but put it on here and there for profile pics and such since then. Its a little tight at the boob area (figures!!!) and it zips in the back. It zips fine til it gets to the top. Basically I need to lose some boob and PRONTO! (well.......I always thought I could lose some boob).

I recently started this diet (and then cheated this morning by eating garlic chicken with linguini, vodka sauce, sundried tomatos and basil. I wanted to eat REAL food! I dont deal w/ dieting well. I am a connoisseur of fine foods and like to eat good stuff! But being unemployed doesn't always allow me to eat well. I've had lots of stretches of oatmeal and granola diets, and rice diets (altho its not really a diet i did lose weight). I really hate eating tasteless food. But my thoughts right now are, just dont be HUNGRY. I'll eat good stuff on the cruise and most likely gain all the weight back cuz I'll binge eat since I was restricting myself, but if I can just wear the white dress i'll be ok. I dont really have anything else to wear to formal night! I have evening gowns but they were from before my weight gain. I weighed 150-160 when I wore those dresses. Now well.... lets not go there.

At my temp assign, I bought a carton of egg whites for $5.99, some frozen veggies and I made egg white omlettes. I am continuing to do this at home. I know I'm not gonna be taking in enough calories by eating only egg whites and veggies but... I really need to drop weight fast. and It aint like I'm starving myself. Lets see how long I can keep this up. I got paid early yesterday so I have some money. I hung the dress up on my closet door to look at it, to remind me why I'm doing this. I am also incorporating chicken into this diet w/ only veggies. No carbs (except this mornign when I cheated). I HATE veggies! This is why I tend to binge because theres nothing on my plate that I LIKE. Idont know how this will pan out but I'm not starving myself but merely doing a super calorie reduction. But I'm active and need more cals than a sedentary person. when I ate weight watchers meals I was starving and weak and tired and i knew I wasnt taking in enough calories. You can't win. Lets see how this plays out tho'. I'm sure I'll lose something!

Egg white omlette w/ spinach. I've been using an assortment of frozen veggies. Either way, I dont like the food. =p~

Another issue I have is I lost my silver stilettos. I brought them to AC earlier this year and wanted to wear them tonight to AC for my friends bday din. I haven't seen them since the last AC trip. I know I didn't leave them cuz we got everything from the room. I really have no other nice shoes to wear to a formal evening and to my own bday. I will wear my silver flats tonight but have to really go thru everything and my car to try to find these shoes. I need at least one pair of going out shoes. I don't know if I will be able to buy more.

Bday -

My bday is a-comin' up! I still am trying to find a place to eat that everyone will like, agree with pricewise, and is decent. I refuse to eat at Applebees, Fridays, Tuesdays, Chilis or any of those franchises! Everything else is upscale with dishes ranging from $18 for pasta to $35 to filet mignon. Other option is bar food. Thats not exactly what I had in mind. I know my outing is gonna be expensive. It s hould be looked at as a weekend activity, not necc as a birthday. I dont' know. I 'm thinking Lake House (pictured below). The inside is a bar w/ bands (not my thing - i hateeee alternative rock!!), but the outside is really pretty and its on a lake w a fountain. I went there once for wsomeone else's bday. The food is eh. Nothing special. Its american. But it may be the best bet pricewise. I DEF want to sit outside. Otherwise, I ain 't going there.

Parasailing prices went up to $65/per person =/ Its not much. I'm gonna try to get a group discount also. I wish I didn't have such expensive taste! Esp since I am only temping.

I ate an egg white omlette 3o min ago and am still STARVING! I gotta leave tho for AC so maybe I'll make another one and eat it when i get there.I'm just gonna have like 2 drinks at Buddakhan and hang out for a while (not a gambler) and head home. Got a drs appt and its a supa long drive. I kinda don't want to go but..... I promised I would.