Effects

I just keep noticing as time goes on, that I get more and more white hairs. Not even gray, but white. They pop with against my dark hair. I think by 35 I'm gonna be dying my hair to cover up, not just cuz I am sick of my color (like I have in the past). Shit, make that 32! Its happening fast. I guess some people with hard lives have it show on their face. I still look pretty young, surprisingly... Mine is showing on my hair. Its gotta be stress. Its not genetic, and thers nothing else going on. Oh yeah, I'm officially impoverished now as of this week. Getting used to the NEW me, and my NEW life. Its gonna take some time.

Oh, and our end of season band banquet is coming up. We go to a fancy restaurant and get to dress up really nice. Last year I was the only one w/ out a date. I'm kinda hesitant to go because of that. Don't have a date this year either. I'd ask a guy that I'm friends with since i'm single now, but none of them are reliable and I have to pay for them. so.... *shrug*. I just hate being asked "so who did you bring?...........noone?...........oh...." Like last year.

I also am trying to think of the perfect line for my tattoo. I've wanted one with WORDS for years. I dont knwo when i'm gonna have money for one but since it'll be on me forever, I dont wanna do it til i'm sure. I have an idea of hte topic. At least if I drop dead it'll be branded on me forever that I died fighting til the end. Thats all I want the world to know.